Pour some sugar on me.

We had our last shebang tonight. Before a complete overhaul. While I have been eating relatively healthy, after watching Fed Up last night, there’s just no better time than right now.

I had a menu planned for the week and when mike texted me to ask what was for dinner tonight, I said either grilled chicken and asparagus or the little mexican restaurant by our house. We both have migraines and feel so yucky so mexican it was. The movie (Fed Up) moved both of us. So, we decided, let’s have our crappy yucky yummy food and start fresh tomorrow.


Us. Right now.


So, this movie. Fed Up. Have you all heard about it? It’s crazy. I mean, yes, I know a diet high in sugar causes obesity and metabolic syndromes such as type 2 diabetes. But this movie makes you go, oh my god, no wonder we’re in this boat. Then it reveals a lot about the government and how it’s all a vicious cycle to get us fat, get us hooked, then require health care, then require dieting help and everyone is rich. And we’re just sick and fat. And not like sick. Like, pass out, 5 years to live type of sick.

The beginning of the movie, I was already ready to cry. These extremely respected scholars explaining how you being fat is not because you’re a p.o.s. human being or a willpower-less bum, it just hit home for me. I blame myself for EVERYTHING always. And it certainly takes a toll on your mental health. It was like someone that mattered in the doctor world sat me down and said, look, this is going to be so hard. Losing weight is going to suck and there’s 1 million reasons why you could fail at every turn. But this is not all your fault. You will just have to be a lot stronger than other people.

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They went on to explain how, even from birth you can begin to get “obese” and launch metabolic issues. For instance, when I was born, I was Lactose intolerant. Therefore, my mom, not knowing any better, gives me lactose free formula. Because that is what she was told to do. But guess what? That formula was loaded with sugar! WTF FORMULA COMPANIES?! How do you live with yourselves?! Knowing you’re putting sugary milk powder on the market as ideal for babies. Crazy. And that’s just a DABBLE into all of the insane information in this movie.


I think my favorite thing that this movie totally accomplished for me, was making sugar look like a straight up sketchy ass drug. It went into scientific detail to how sugar is basically cocaine to people the way it reacts in their brains. But not only did it prove sugar is an addiction, it also made one of the most amazing conclusions that I had never thought of before. In the 90’s, early 2000’s, it slowly but surely became repulsive to smoke. The TV and Internet were loaded with anti-smoking campaigns. And cities banned it from indoor settings. Not only that, but in most places, you have to be yards away from a building to smoke. I work in a downtown building and its RARE to see a person smoking. Because they made it so hard to do so. And also, because it’s almost become “trashy”. So, why can’t they do that with sugar? Why can’t they expose it like they exposed smoking hazards, and why can’t sodas come with a warning label? Why can’t I know the daily percentage of sugar on nutrition labels? So. Many. Good. Questions.

So, try it with us. No sugar. No head fog. No sugar turning to fat storage in our bodies. I’m very excited to go forward with the new information I’ve learned from this amazing documentary. I hope the whole world sees it. And I hope we all can win the fight. Our future looks bleak without a change. I know mine certainly does.

If you made it through my insane ramblings, you deserve the most delicious sugar free cookie ever!!!

Be back tomorrow with what we’re eating this week and a recipe!



2 ingredient pumpkin muffins

Halloween basically starts now in our house. Mainly because fall is perfect, Halloween and horror movies are fun and pumpkin tastes yummy in everything. It is the first weekend in September, which means it’s time to start baking fall treats!

I discovered these bad boys about 3 years ago online. If my memory serves me right, I believe they claimed to be a weight watchers recipe. At the time, that meant it was healthy.

I’ll admit, my version of healthy from 3 years ago and healthy as I now know it are very different things. These muffins may be made with processed cake mix, but coming in at under 170 calories for one delicious muffin that tastes like fall and heaven, so be it. They will remain a breakfast favorite for Mike and I. You can use gluten free cake mix if that makes you feel better. But it was either $6 or $1. I preferred to save the $5. 🙂


So yes, there is cake mix in this recipe. It is 1 part of the 2 part recipe! But to make you feel better about eating this low calorie treat, I have combined a short and sweet fact list of why pumpkin is so good for you! Even the canned kind!

-Pumpkin is filled with fiber. And because it’s low calorie, it can aid in weight loss by keeping you fuller for longer!

-You know how bananas are known for their potassium count making it an ideal post workout snack? Well, pumpkin is JAM PACKED with potassium. Turns out, pumpkin has more of the refueling nutrient potassium, with 564 milligrams to a banana’s 422. This makes pumpkin an amazing choice of post work out snack to restore electrolytes and to keep muscles functioning at their best!

-It also contains beta-carotene which is known to potentially ward off cancer. And it also is said to prevent wrinkles by keeping skin supple and moisturized. Basically what I’m saying is, these muffins do more good than they do harm! And isn’t that more than enough to have a yummy fall treat?! To me, yes. I mean, come on, they’re delicious.

You will need:
-One box of white cake mix. Yellow cake mix. Butter cake mix. Any cake mix you choose. Get creative. But yellow, butter and white are all so great! If you want something extra special, try carrot cake mix with the pumpkin. It tastes like a holiday explosion right in your cakehole.
-One 15oz can of pure pumpkin

Makes 12 muffins

Guys… That’s. It. People always asked me for the recipe and thought it was a joke. I assure you it is not.

The fun thing about these muffins are that you can literally add WHATEVER you want. White chocolate chips, chocolate chips, nuts and raisins are all great options!

Preheat oven to 350 degrees.

Combine the can of pumpkin and the cake mix until there are no more big chunks of cake and the batter is smooth. After it is combined, if you plan to add anything to the muffins, now is the time!

Take a muffin tin and fill with cupcake liners. I gently spray the liners with Pam to ensure they won’t stick to the liner. If you don’t have cupcake liners, no worries. Just spray the tins with cooking spray!

Fill each muffin tin 2/3’s of the way full. These don’t rise like CRAZY like regularly cupcakes or muffins so if they are full, it’s all good!


Bake for 20-25 minutes. Mine almost always take about 25 minutes!

Take out of the oven and let them cool! Then eat up! If you want to be extra indulgent, put a warm one in a bowl and add in some ice cream. OMG yes.


My favorite thing in the world is a muffin for breakfast with my morning coffee. And another one maybe at 9 pm after dinner. Hehe

I hope you guys love these as much as we do! I’m so happy it’s fall. Best time of the year.



Tuesday Talk Time

I made a promise to myself to keep updating the blog. Every few days. Absolutely no less than that.

I glanced back through my older posts today. I’m a broken record. Hey guys, bye guys, lost weight, gained weight, I’m starting over, I’m done. The fact that any of you all read this and check in with me is miraculous in and of itself. So, for you all and for me, there will not be another start over. I spend 90% of my day thinking about losing weight and making healthy choices. That is no exaggeration. Imagine what all I could think of if I met my goal and that wasn’t a “thing” anymore. Okay don’t imagine, because me alone with my thoughts is terrifying. Heh


What a smart asshole that guy was. After that speech in the movie theatre I wanted to stand up and clap and yell WOOOOOOOO!!! I’m a nerd. But it was Leo playing him. In my defense. So convincing.

But this is so true for me. Tough love. Yes, it’s hard. Yes, I’d rather eat a donut cheeseburger with a side of pizza than grilled fish. Yes, I’d rather lay on my couch, eating a box of Reesee’s Pieces, cry laughing at all of the Mindy Project episodes than workout. Yes, I secretly wish all skinny girls who eat whatever they want get Regina George tricked into eating high carb candy bars. (I’m satan.) Life, sometimes, isn’t fair. But what is fair is I have a wonderful family, boyfriend, animos, job and shelter. And, honestly my health. I’m not missing limbs. My brain functions at a normal rate(debatable) and I have clean water. And yet I sit here and whine about my weight.


This one is probably the motivational quote of the year for me. As I sit here two years after deciding to “really get serious and do something about my weight.” I could’ve been skinny by now! Think about that. If you genuinely lost weight when you said you were going to, how long would you have been fit and healthy? So sad. So true. But now’s the time!

I will never NOT love food. Healthy food, sweet food, grilled food, organic food, fresh food, fried food. I do NOT discriminate. And I probably never ever will.

*Dana posted this awhile back. I’ve never felt something as hard as I do that statement. I’m not joking. Stop laughing.

I can’t help that I feel happiness sitting at a restaurant with a plate of food in my face. That will never change. I will always get gooey eyes over a piece of cake, tacos, a juicy burger and even roasted zucchini.

This is all a head game. I know I am 110% capable of doing what I need to do. It’s not letting my mind slip. It’s knowing I can get through this 5 minute craving for ice cream pizza.*

*it’s not real. I’m sorry.

So, tonight I take a stand. To get it together. To stop embarassing myself by being a broken record. To have a happy, healthy life.

P.S. Bob Harper’s Cardio Conditioning kicks. Serious. Ass. I’ve done insanity and p90boring and I FEEEEEEEEL bob Harper. I feel you Bob. Every single day after a workout. My butt, my thighs, my arms, my abs. So stoked to have this available to do right inside the house. Plus, he’s adorable. Check it out! You won’t be sorry. Unless you don’t crave that “I worked out really hard” sore feeling. Then it’s not for you.